I feel nauseous.
Anxious & depressed.
Fearful & full of doubt.
Violent & apathetic.
All day I stare into glowing screens.
Advertisements bombarding me at every moment.
One show is violent.
The next full of greed and anger.
Could this be the source of my discontent?
You are what you eat.
You are what you listen too.
You are what you watch on your glowing screens.
I am home.
I have arrived.
Present in this moment.
Focused on my breathe.
Letting go of my attachments.
My fears & doubts.
I am home.
I have arrived.
In the now.
Today I will release my need to know.
To control everything & everyone.
I will surrender to the path unknown.
I don’t know what lies ahead on my path.
I don’t know if I will ever get married or have kids.
I don’t know what happens after death.
I don’t know what is best for another.
I don’t know what is truly good or bad.
Darkness & light dance slowly in the shadows of my mind.
Peace, love, & compassion.
War, hatred, & fear.
Fighting for my attention.
Which wolf will surface?
The one you feed.
Three coconut trees are planted near the coast of the Island of Maui.
One palm tree focuses its energy on impressing tourists by growing the most delicious coconuts on the island. It seeks constant validation from others.
The second tree wants to be respected for being the tallest coconut tree on the island. It grows its stem thick but not flexible to impress or scare others.
The third coconut tree is small and has average coconuts. It focused its energy on building strong roots deep into the ground.
A massive storm approaches from the north. High winds howl into the darkness of the night. The storm ends swiftly the following morning leaving the coastal town in pieces.
The first tree is uprooted, flying into the depths of the ocean. It spent a majority of its life trying to please others and thus had tremendously weak roots.
The second coconut tree wasn’t flexible enough to weather the storm. It spent its whole life trying to earn respect through fear and power. Its insecurities cracked under the immense power of the storm.
The third coconut tree survives the storm. Its roots were well developed and its stem was flexible in the high winds. It wasn’t living to please others or intimidate them through might.
By focusing your energy on your roots you can weather any storm.
By staying flexible, you can bend with the strong winds of life.
A wave breaks at the shore.
Never to be seen again.
One wave allows room for the next.
It accepts its impermanence.
It allows for its transformation.
The wave is both impermanent & infinite.
Each drop of water is interconnected.
Within the vastness of the ocean.
So are you.
A deep mental fog.
Why must I be distracted from my life?
Is my cell phone more important than joy?
I must change this behavior.
Today, I will rip off the band-aid.
No more social media.
No more scrolling away my life.