I feel nauseous.
Anxious & depressed.
Fearful & full of doubt.
Violent & apathetic.
All day I stare into glowing screens.
Advertisements bombarding me at every moment.
One show is violent.
The next full of greed and anger.
Could this be the source of my discontent?
You are what you eat.
You are what you listen too.
You are what you watch on your glowing screens.
After 18 months of living on the beautiful Island of Maui, I have decided to take a huge step into the unknown. I have decided to fulfill a dream of mine and move overseas for 1 year to New Zealand on a working holiday visa. A mix of excitement, joy, and fear dances around my mind these last couple weeks. Fear is natural to such risky endeavors but I’m choosing to guide my life with the love of the unknown instead of fear. All the new people and experiences that lie ahead sounds exciting to me! I have faith that everything will work out as it always has. Zooming out, every risk I have taken has worked out in the long run. Why should I doubt myself and others when all of my past tells me otherwise? Moving to Maui has prepared me for this even bolder step on my path into the unknown. I left a stable career job on the mainland to move to Maui. Without this critical step, I would not be moving to New Zealand. I am grateful for Maui and the many people who have helped me along the way!
I will be living in hostels all over the north and south islands of New Zealand while working part-time to live full time. I hope to post about my experiences in New Zealand on this blog to help others live more meaningful lives. I want to inspire others to take risks in order to live the life they love. Thank you to those reading this post. I appreciate your time and attention.
I am home.
I have arrived.
Present in this moment.
Focused on my breathe.
Letting go of my attachments.
My fears & doubts.
I am home.
I have arrived.
In the now.
Today I will release my need to know.
To control everything & everyone.
I will surrender to the path unknown.
I don’t know what lies ahead on my path.
I don’t know if I will ever get married or have kids.
I don’t know what happens after death.
I don’t know what is best for another.
I don’t know what is truly good or bad.
Darkness & light dance slowly in the shadows of my mind.
Peace, love, & compassion.
War, hatred, & fear.
Fighting for my attention.
Which wolf will surface?
The one you feed.
This river wanders.
Thoughts constantly flowing.
Constant white noise.
Filling the emptiness.
We sit by the stream.
Observing its ever-lasting flow.
Views, likes, and followers
The new currency of self-worth.
How many followers does a person need to feel important?
How many likes do you need until you feel complete?
How many views till you’re content with your life?
Will you ever be satisfied?
Let go of the constant need for outside validation.
Let go of the obsession with likes, followers, and views.
Embrace your mission.
Embrace your purpose.
Your life is much more important the number of followers you have.
Quality over quantity.